Last year I made this little book called DID My Story; but I never really talked much about it at the time, I think because it wasn't the right time. Just 2 days ago a friend of mine asked on Facebook if you could go back in time where would you go???
I had a long think about it; and decided I wouldn't go back - at least not to change things. Sounds weird huh? Most people would change something - my childhood/early life wasn't easy; nor has my 20's been - battling a very long illness has been tough. However if I hadn't gotten sick, and I hadn't had all those experiences I wouldn't be who I am today. 2 months ago now I came off my main medication - and it felt great; is my illness cured? NO.... I will always have Dissociative Identity Disorder, I will always have bad days but I made the choice to have good days too and to learn about my illness.
Having DID changed my life; it made me who I am now - and I am who I want to be.......... I'm not perfect, I have my failings but I'm happy - WHY would I go back and change my life? Changing the pattern of your life changes the whole course. I am not happy with my past, and sure if I could change the hurt and still be the same person now I totally would..... but it's not possible. I've accepted my life and my story for what it is and what is will be - and it feels good.
I know today's post is a little bit serious, but I'll be back tomorrow with Pinterest Sunday.
love, V xoxo