This week I took part in a facebook mission, which was to wear purple on Wednesday to commemorate the young people who have commited suicide as a result of bullying due to being gay. This week I have also started reading the blog Queer Opinions, which is written by a small group of people, one who is my friend Zach - who just came out to his friends this year, and it was reading his story that encouraged me to write this post.
I personally knew I was gay years ago, I never had feeling for men at all - infact the thought of them repulsed me (no offence men!!! LOL). I never told anybody because I was living in a highly religious world, I thought I had to be someone I wasn't - and I lived that act from the age of 17. In a sense being religious helped me - I wasn't ready to come out and I was afraid of being judged because I wasn't dating......... in that world no-one cared, but since coming out EVERYONE has an opinion.
To be fair I had massive opinions at the age of 21 - but they weren't mine, they were church opinions. Church opinions that caused me to have a MASSIVE issue with some ladies on a forum, I thought I was saying the right thing when in actual fact I wasn't - it was unfair of me to lie about MY opinions and to anyone that was hurt by my actions I apologise to you now. I haven't gone to church in about 4 years now, I don't agree with "organised" religion and I am, finally, in a happy place in my life.
Coming out was a huge thing for me, I met my, now, gorgeous wife and we clicked - we were best friends for just over a year before we both came out to each other and started our relationship - it was the best thing I've ever done. Telling my family and my friends was easy - I didn't come up against adversity with those nearest and dearest to me. I did have a few people in my life who are no longer in my life, which is their choice (not mine). For me, coming out has freed me - I feel happy, loved and I'm married to the best woman in the whole world (not that I'm biased!!!) - it feels amazing.
I'm off now, I just felt so inspired. I'll be back in a few days with some layout pics. CIAO xx