I have read the blog of Kaelah (aka Little Chief Honeybee) for a while now and had particular interest in her mini-series Honest To Blog; now that she has given permission to use the name I thought I might give some honest blogging a go........
I've been blogging for over 3 years, in that time I've changed my blog name 4 times and my URL twice - why? Well I said something a long time ago (almost 7 years ago) on a scrapbooking forum; it's something that I felt strongly about at the time and something I truly regret saying. It's haunted me for all of those years; however, many of the people who had issues with me have moved on and now it seems to be the same few ladies who still have issues. I've reinvented my blog several times because of this, sometimes to escape and sometimes just because it felt like the right thing. But now I am tired of running, tired of trying to hide from people who really have no clue about the situation I was in back then. I was incredibly sick; I was dealing with alot of things at that point and trying to crawl back the big black hole which was my life. About 2 years ago or so I offered to apologise to anybody who had been hurt by me, if they emailed me and stop hiding behind "anonymous", just one person actually emailed but she got an apology, I was truly sorry for hurting her. People still have the option to email me, my email address is on the sidebar but, somehow, the few people who are still digging obviously do so because of an issue with themselves, I'm not sure that it's really about me anymore. I'm sad that I've spent so much time getting bothered by all of this, but this morning I read something that was said about me and I thought - NO!!! I'm choosing to ignore it, I'm choosing to do this blog post and put it out there and I'm choosing to take control over MY destiny.
I am not perfect, I don't blog as much as I should sometimes and sometimes I have opinions that are different from your's BUT I have 185 followers on this blog (thank you) and just a few days ago I hit 25,000 views of my blog - that felt amazing.
At the end of the day blogging is something that I have chosen to keep doing; sometimes things will be said that I might not like, but equally sometimes I might post something that a reader doesn't like...... BUT if you don't like this blog don't read it - I read many other blogs but if I don't like the topic of a post or I just don't like the blog, I don't hang about and I certainly don't keep going back. Everybody has a choice in blogging, as an author and as a reader. What choice will you make?