Dear 21 year old Vicki,
Since moving to England, life has been hard - going from being homesick to having the worst nightmares that anybody can even imagine was bad enough, but then attempting suicide several times in just one month, I am surprised you survived.
I know that staying in the hospital for those 3 weeks seemed really unhelpful, but I promise you that one day you will be able to look back on that experience and be thankful - it saved your life, and allowed us to go forward.
The diagnosis doesn't ever make the illness disappear; but with help and time you will come to accept it - and to realise that it isn't a label - that YOU are not a label. There will be people, over time, who leave your life because they can't deal with it - some of them will come back but most of them won't or can't, remember that is their choice, and it does not make you a bad person at all. One day you will meet your soul mate, and that person is amazing, special and supports you through the good and the bad - and you will get married. Somedays life is still hard but mostly it's pretty special, you get to make some pretty awesome stuff and put in place the lessons you've learned from this journey. Remember that you are special, and you will be awesome and to thank all of those people who help you along the way.
from, your 29 year old future self xxx
I have to say, of all of the letters I've ever written - this might be one of the hardest ones but I actually feel good for it - and if you made your way through the whole thing - thank you. And finally to all of you who did help me through the journey (you know who you are) - thank you, we love you.
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